So I went back to work about 2 months ago now...
...it was the hardest thing I've ever done. I told Matt that it broke my heart nearly as much as losing our Glory Baby, maybe even more.
But it didn't take long to get back into the swing of things. We had great daycare worked out, I had my new schedule all worked out, and our next phase of "new normal" was about to implemented.
Well, it's a fairly long story, but I'll just sum it up by saying that the Lord had a lot to teach us in a small amount of time. It's been a little rough. Good, always good, but rough. Matt and I have had some decisions to make, some priorities to rearrange, and yes, some arguments to hash out.
Some questions to ask:
Where does our treasure lie??
What is God's plan for our family?
Do we trust in the Lord, or do we trust in our money?
Do we trust Him to give us exactly what we need - our daily bread - no more and certainly no less?
As always, the Lord is kind enough to bring us back to the same answer: He is our sole sufficiency. He is enough. He is our Provider.
I'm not quitting my job outright...I'm dropping down to one day a week, and the way my weekend schedule works out, that means that I'll work my weekend every three weeks and the Saturday of my weekend will be my one day for the first week, Sunday will be my one day for the second week, and I'll work one weekday on the third week. And then repeat the following weekend. So essentially, Levi will be with a sitter one day every three weeks, which will be at the house of one of my besties. I love my job. But things have changed.
So, I guess I'll be a stay-at-home mom who wears scrubs occasionally. And I really like that.
I think he will too!