Friday, July 8, 2011

Heavy

My house smells like cookies. The sun is out. My baby is sleeping. My couch is full of clean and folded laundry (a rare sight, believe me...the dryer and clotheslines all serve as rudimentary dresser drawers at our house).

But my heart is so, so heavy. So full of burdens for people I dearly love who are in circumstances in which they never dreamed they'd find themselves. Marriages that are crumbling. Among other things, the men they love are in the throes of addiction and they are exchanging truth for a lie, reality for an idol. An idol that has eyes but does not see, ears but does not hear, a mouth that does not speak...and they are becoming like that idol. Numb. They worship something that is created, contrived, and false.

It is an idol that our society celebrates, accepts, and defends. Evidently it's "free speech." Consenting adults. Ha. We'd love to think that it's tied up in a neat package like that, but it ain't.

Think again. That which is free comes with a price, and the price of it is staggering. It is chipping away at our families, our relationships, our ability to see people as people, souls as souls.

I've been wanting to write about this for a long, long time. Fear of man has prevented me from doing it. It's part of the reason this blog sits dormant for weeks at a time. What I really want to pour out of my heart is dangerous. I'm afraid people will call me judgmental. A prude. A sensationalist. Not with-it. Over-the-edge.

Too bad. I've sat on my couch enough times now crying and praying with yet another friend whose dreams are threatening to be crushed by this entity. If it quacks like a duck, let's call it a duck.

Pornography is evil. Our culture is saturated and obsessed with sex. What God intended to be beautiful and in the context of a covenant relationship has been made a farce.

And I'm gonna write about it.

5 comments:

CA Mommy said...

Jennylove, All I can think of is what my mother used to tell me, taken from John 14:1: Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. I love you, CA Mommy

thelorixchronicles said...

I am so glad you're writing about this. People accept pornography without thinking about how it can harm them or the ones they love. I've often thought, especially since I'm somewhat "liberal-minded," that I'll be seen as a prude or not-with-it, like you said, because I think porn is just plain wrong.

It's not that I don't get the fascination - I do - but that doesn't mean it's good for us or healthy for relationships. It diminishes the love/pleasure/intimacy that a couple has when one (or both) of them are giving that part of them over to porn.

I could go one, but I find it hard to talk about. Maybe one of these days I can write about it.

Rachael Neal said...

Amen and amen...keep writing sister.

Cara said...

Something has to give in the church...God will not be mocked. I know this personally. Mark 9:43 - God is not going to allow those involved in the worship of idols to enter into His life. If the fear of God has left a person's heart, then we need to re-read and practice 1 Corinthians 5 (especially 11-13).
Like I already said, this is my testimony and we must "hold fast to our confession of faith" or we will have nothing to hold onto at all.

Cara said...

Also - keep it up Jenny.
"Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God." Colossians 3:16
You are a true source of encouragement to me!!